What's Wrong, Alice?

[save_us_alice]

(Victor's possession by the King of Hearts, The King's trip to the Nexus, Alice learning about this horribleness from Captain John Hart. Takes place the day after the King's Nexus visit.)

Alice sits miserably in her room, holding her PINpoint in her hands and trying not to cry. She can hardly believe she has to do this. But after what she heard from Cheshire, and confirmed via the Caterpillar. . . .

She had no idea it could hurt so much. She hasn't even done it yet, and already her heart feels painfully tight inside her chest. She hadn't realized -- when had he become so important to her? When had the thought of life without him become so -- so terrible? She had been prepared to life her life as a spinster before, hadn't she?

Oh God, she can still remember that ghost of the future, her in a wedding dress and him. . . .

She doesn't want to do this. Or, if she has to, she wants to do it as a message over the PINpoint. But she knows that wouldn't be fair to him. If she's going to do this, she's going to do it in person. "I am a fighter," she tells herself. "I slayed the Jabberwock. I destroyed the Queen of Hearts. I saved Wonderland. I can do this."

But as she stands up and prepares to PINpoint out, she thinks that this is going to be harder than any of that.

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[deadgirlsliekme.livejournal.com]

Victor and company are back in their apartments in their pocket reality, having said goodbye and thanks again to April for helping Victor (http://slayers-desire.livejournal.com/26453.html). Doc and Dee are giving him some time to recover and make sure he's truly himself before they contact the other two members of their little posse. Victor's currently sitting on his bed, going over what he's going to say to Alice in his mind. The mental blocks are still up, though he can hear the King grumbling. Don't see why I shouldn't at least get to see her. . . .

She's my girlfriend, Victor says firmly. Then, reluctantly, he adds, But if she truly wants to see you. . .we'll figure out something. After all, the King might genuinely be a friend of hers.